Its good to know there's someone out there who understands my motivations in studying.had a skype videochat with dad a while ago. He suddenly asked hows my studies.
Honestly? with mom i cant say enough words to make her frustrated again, but with dad?
He simply understands.
"It's not getting any good dad.." that's what i told him at least. thought he had seen the slightest sigh i let out.
"..it's not getting any worse either. don't worry dad." true that.
Well technically, I'm in the average progress of improvement compared last term (in which i didn't fail a subject for that matter i got a lowest of 2.75 - and a GWA that can almost kill a hummingbird).
I haven't told mom about it. For all i know it wasn't something to brag about. Well you see, they don't really understand how hard it is to study in Mapua. A survival to the fittest it is. but that cant prove any matter for them knowing every student in the college level could pass a subject if they can study enough to win it.
Ha! they don't really know that much at all. Yes, it could be true but in my school? its 3x out of the hell difficulty. but to myself? I am really proud of what i had achieved last term. I had Studied BIGTIME and i doubled my efforts, initiative and full devotion on it.
I even bought something that i want last month, a gift to myself for studying hard. To them it wouldn't change anything at all but to me? it was a blessing. I even donate half of my allowance and attended a big mass on St. Jude (a church in mendiola-legarda, where every thursday i hear novena masses) with my school buddies.
However, I had accepted the fact that the only person that could understand me is me. but tonight, i had proved myself wrong.
There's still one person in this world who could see my full motivation in studying.Dad.
Even if were torn apart by distance he still manage to give me the comfort i need at times when i really most need it.
"I can see that you wanted to graduate really fast as possible but don't be, because when i was studying there a full unit subjects is soo much to bear in that moment i couldn't think of any possible way to pass it all so there, i fail a few of them.. hehehe.." he even make fun at his failed subjects but that didn't make me laugh, instead i'd cried.
Now i know I'm not alone in this world.
I love you dad!